The majority of my days are spent gone. Gone from this world. Gone from myself. I’d like to say I’m just on autopilot but for the most part I’m gone. It’s a strange feeling to enter into dissociation. It’s like you’ve time traveled to an era you’ve already lived through once, but you do not… Continue reading Missing Amid My Mind | What dissociation feels like
In honour of world mental health day I want to talk about the greyzone of depression When people ask me what depression feels like I never know what to say. It varies. Sometimes it feels like I’m drowning and I can’t escape, others there’s just a unshakeable sense that everything is pointless. For me it… Continue reading The Depression Greyzone
Change hope and uncertainty are scary things that come up a lot during life as a chronically ill person. So let’s talk about it.
In honour of eating disorder awareness week ( a little late) I’m chiosingbtonshare myneating dsirsoer Story, what it was like mentally and my recovery and appreciation of the body acceptance movements.
I’ve had my autoimmune disease since the age of four (2006). Since I was little my mum has used social media to connect to other patients and get information, because my disease is rare there wasn’t very much out there. But she found a small group of about twenty people on google hangouts, which has… Continue reading World in my hands
My fear of flare ups Chronic pain is horrible. Chronic means; something negative which is long lasting. My pain is complex, I have multiple kinds all over my body. The chronic pain started when I was 10 ish due to my nerve damage from Neuromyelitis Optica. I was on gabapentin to manage it - which… Continue reading Flarophobia
Yesterday was suicide prevention day, I wanted to write but I didn’t really feel up to it. Since this is an issue everyday, I will write today. Within the chronic illness community it’s very common to feel suicidal. Usually the thought process is that we don’t want to live THIS WAY. If we could be… Continue reading Better Days Ahead | Suicide Prevention
In this society where people’s worth constructed and not just inherent, it’s so easy to feel like a failure. If you can’t work, can’t study then what is your worth based on? In my opinion so much more. Sure it’s great to contribute to the world, keep yourself busy and whatever, but are you happy?… Continue reading Spoonie, you are enough!
For the last year or so I've consistently used the wellbeing app Pacifica to manage my Depression and Anxiety. It includes daily tools for stress reduction and to improve your wellbeing, alongside a community. Based on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy & Meditation it is the perfect place to begin building a happier and reduced stress life. … Continue reading Pacifica review: easy self care